So,i got me a house.i am finally going it alone…disclaimer,prayer works.even those that you say silently.God hears them all.so very soon i shall be in my house-all mine.i cannot tell how super excited i am.been a long time coming!on top of that,i am filling the registeration form for my hand made cards business.awesome!
On the low side,speculations aside,i have confirmation that my once good friend is going out with a guy i had a thing with…im still not sure how to react to that.should i cut them both of from my life?maybe just be cordial with them,nothing personal.thats it.i am not mad;was hurt but i healed.it just feels like a deep betrayal.i have forgiven i just feel i want to leave them both in my past.but who knows?i hate how i give so many chances at times,to people who hurt me.but isnt there a song i love that speaks of loving how God loves?God and i will figure it out.
My relationship on the other hand,i dont really know if im still in one or not.long distance without communication,can that even work?it hurts.he is in the army but doesnt make me miss him less or desire to hear his voice which has become quite scarce.my bestfriend told me not to run but wait it out…another for God and I to figure out.
I am opening up to life,day by day.i didnt even realize how closed up i was.i am going to start to take more notice of life and my environment.to stop an smell the roses and enjoy their scent.
Life is a balance,good and bad times but all in all it is beautiful it is like a see-saw.