It is that day again when I am just not sure what exactly I am doing on this earth. Now, I get to the office and read the Bible and of course it makes me think and see clearer and so truth is, I know what I want; I know what I am here for, it’s just fear holding me hostage. So I find myself asking, ‘Fear of success or failure?’ I do not know which but I think they interchange. LOL. One day it’s success I am afraid of and the next it’s failure and I cannot keep up. I see my days slipping through my fingers and now I add another fear, of not living out my purpose.What to do?
What to do is to face myself! That’s what I need to do as ultimately I am my own stumbling block…the greatest of them all! And so I need a sitting with me and this to be an honest one on one kind of session. It is now 22 days to me growing older and I am literally shaking as I desire to really live and not just exist, but me talking about it and doing nothing will not help me much, now will it. So I need to come up with a strategy. A strategy on how to make every day count; a strategy on how to apply myself to every thing I do; a strategy on how to make my 26th year on this world count. I need to look at 25 and what I have done. The mistakes made and the lessons learned and decide what I will carry with me to the new year to help me achieve my dreams and goals.
Quarter life crisis, maybe.Mine came late I guess but you know what, I will make it through the rain and I will figure it all out.
My songs for the day, Not a girl, not yet a woman by Britney Spears and through the rain by Mariah Carey… A toast to all who are in this valley; we will figure it all out!